ULTRAVIOLET ULTRAVIOLENT

i ask too much of the ones i love. i ask you to be holy, i ask you be foolish and sorry, i ask you to keep me sane. i ask to be saved, to flounder in the tar pits of your dark heart. i feel something in your arms that i have not felt in all my days. and now i fear this feeling is fleeting and i do not know any other way now. spinning wildly under the sun we are drunk and too much in love. it is too much

i want to lay beneath your ceilings, i want to breathe your light. i want it to fill me like a cool pool of water and erase the bad times. the times i spun wickedly like a rabid planet in search of a point to orbit, you shine like you’re all mine and cleave a perfect circle in a ruined sky. for all your flaws you are a moon among the stars. and i swung my body like a net and dragged you into me. i thank god you loved me

i do not know your songs but you guide me across the floor like i was born dancing. i do not know the words but i will clear this drain of a throat and sing. and the notes sound sweet and clear like they were meant for me. do you hear me? i am singing so loud

it’s the snow on top of the mountain. it’s sweet like your bare skin in the grass. it’s tears in my dry eyes, so joyful i could cry because my mourning days are over

i will lay myself to rest. i will plant flowers around my bed and watch them grow. i do not know where we’re headed but together we go